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ash wednesday.

(from “The Book of Common Prayer”)
Most holy and merciful Father:
We confess to you and to one another, and to the whole communion of saints in heaven and on earth, that we have sinned by our own fault in thought, word, and deed; by what we have done, and by what we have left undone.

We have not loved you with our whole heart, and mind, and strength. We have not loved our neighbors as ourselves. We have not forgiven others, as we have been forgiven.
HAVE MERCY ON US, LORD

We have been deaf to your call to serve, as Christ served us. We have not been true to the mind of Christ. We have grieved your Holy Spirit.
HAVE MERCY ON US, LORD

We confess to you, Lord, all our past unfaithfulness: the pride, hypocrisy, and impatience of our lives,
WE CONFESS TO YOU, LORD

Our self-indulgent appetites and ways, and our exploitation of other people,
WE CONFESS TO YOU, LORD

Our anger at our own frustration, and our envy of those more fortunate than ourselves,
WE CONFESS TO YOU, LORD

Our intemperate love of worldly goods and comforts, and our dishonesty in daily life and work,
WE CONFESS TO YOU, LORD

Our negligence in prayer and worship, and our failure to commend the faith that is in us,
WE CONFESS TO YOU, LORD

Accept our repentance, Lord, for the wrongs we have done: for our blindness to human need and suffering, and our indifference to injustice and cruelty,
ACCEPT OUR REPENTANCE, LORD

For all false judgments, for uncharitable thoughts toward our neighbors, and for our prejudice and contempt toward those who differ from us,
ACCEPT OUR REPENTANCE, LORD

For our waste and pollution of your creation, and our lack of concern for those who come after us,
ACCEPT OUR REPENTANCE, LORD

Restore us, good Lord, and let your anger depart from us;
FAVORABLY HEAR US, FOR YOUR MERCY IS GREAT

Accomplish in us the work of your Salvation,
THAT WE MAY SHOW FORTH YOUR GLORY IN THE WORLD.

By the cross and passion of your Son our Lord,
BRING US WITH ALL YOUR SAINTS TO THE JOY OF HIS RESURRECTION

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an adoption psalm.

Oh God, I cry out to you. We cry out to you.
In the midst of reccuring needs for paperwork, we’re frustrated.
After far too long with no official update, we’re discouraged.
Aren’t we following your call? Why have you been silent?
Hope seems to tease us over the horizon, and vanishes before the dawn ever comes.
Time stands still, and flows steadily on without us.

Stop. Breathe deep.

I see others following you, Jesus, and doors swing wide open.
I watch those who don’t even know you get what they desire.
I hear others struggling, and praising you for quick response.
Meanwhile your daughter is waiting. Your son is waiting.
Your children are waiting. Will you move? Will you speak?

Stop. Breathe deep.

God you hear our cries.
In the midst of our notarizations and birth certificates.
As we check our e-mail hourly.
As we flood our agency with reminders and requests.
You are near. You have not turned away. You will not leave us.
Hope is not over the horizon. Hope is here in our midst.
Hope is with your children, as they are waiting.

Stop. Breathe deep.

In a last minute late-night e-mail – you are here.
In the potential for immunizations – you are here.
In an overwhelming response to a fundrasier – you are here.
In the prayers of our children already tucked into bed – you are here.
In the transformation of a heart that might otherwise feel too easily contented – you are here.
And there. With her. With them.

And so the Truth comes – as we spend time with you, we are with her.
Lord, come near. I want to be with her.
With you.

Stop. Breathe deep.

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risqué blog title.

This is where I tease you a bit, making you wonder if the blog I’ve written truly says what you think it might.  It piqued your interest just enough, and the image that came with it connected with something you’ve either experienced, or recently heard about.  It’s probably pretty important.  Or something so excruciatingly vital, you’re not sure how you lived without such knowledge.  This is where you begin to wonder if perhaps I’ve tricked you into reading something you completely agreed with already.  This is where I drag one point out just a little too long, possibly throwing in a vague quote by an author you might perceive as inflammatory.  But not inflammatory enough to make you stop reading.  Possibly even….educational?  Inspirational?

This sentence, right here.  Rather, this one, is just edgy enough to make you gasp audibly.  As this happens, you wonder if now would be a good time to “share” the article so that you’ll be the first among your friends to do so.  You decide to read a bit more first, playing it safe.  After all, we all remember that one time you “shared” that one article that didn’t exactly say what you thought it did at first glance.  As it turns out, playing it safe was a good move, because you seriously begin to wonder if this article says much of anything beyond what you already believed.  But then, it happens.fishbowel

Like. Never. Before.

Yup, I pull a twist of the English language and revelatory emotion that makes you jump 10 feet out of your literary comfort zone.  But now you’re too hooked to even think about leaving my site to share it with your friends.  Yet.  Of course, it’s still there in the back of your mind.  And “liking” it, of course.  But now you’re diving deep into my words, my powerful prose has captured your imagination, and begun to even tug at your heart.  You wonder why you haven’t put these words together like this before….once it’s written, it seems so incredibly obvious.  But then again, it wasn’t obvious, was it?  Your friends are going to love this post.  This deserves to be read by everyone who really “gets” what you’re thinking about lately.  Or should, at least.  But wait…there’s one more thing to do.

You click the “comment” button.  Because you know many of your friends will end up reading/commenting/sharing this article as well.  You want them to see that you’ve taken the time to let these words simmer in the  midst of your day, and offer a slight contribution to the article.  Nothing trollish, but nothing as simple as a verbal “nod of the head” either.  Something with weight, but nothing that’s going to blow up your feed with responses.   As you sit there pondering, blank ready to be filled, you realize how much pressure you feel in this moment.  You decide the value of your time is much more than the value from one comment. After all, people will all post their responses on your facebook anyway…not here.

So you quietly let go of the need to post a contributional comment.  You copy the URL at the top, and click over to your social network of choice.  Posting a quick update, you announce to all who might follow your activities, “I’ve read this, and think it was worth sharing.” Instantly, 30% of your friends feel the tug on their moment and think to themselves “Whoa…I should probably check that out.”  Some of them will.  A new conversation will begin on your social network of choice that adds local and intimate flavor to the topic.

I will smile.  Thanks for reading.  🙂