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swimming in it.

Recently, we were able to take one of our daughters to the zoo. Never mind the tears threatening to well up when I remember all the trips to zoos when they were little, filled with awe and wonder. I remember the gasps, the giggles, and the excitement of getting an animal to look your way or respond to any noise you make. I confess, I’m still that kid. The glances I share with my wife and daughters at the zoo tell me they’ve still got that kid within them as well.

It’s easy to experience the wonder and grace of nature when watching an animal swim deep underwater. Gazing through thick glass that somehow holds back an entire environment from crashing through, it’s inspiring to watch their eyes close in what feels like delight as their body does what it was made so naturally to do. Smooth bodies sailing through cosmic flows of H20 with little resistance to hinder, as if one flipper can send them soaring to distant oceans (were it not for the size of their tank).

In such a moment, it strikes me as an apropos reminder of our local church (yours too – really any local church where the Spirit of Jesus is present) in our best moments. Here is an environment where a New Creation (see 2 Cor. 5:17) can swim undaunted through waters of loving and being loved, forgiving as a knee-jerk reaction, seeing all that happens in the context of His glory. We gather each week, soaring through baptism waters of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. It’s inspiring to look around, seeing one another do what we (as New Creations) were re-made so supernaturally to do. Worshiping and loving with little resistance to hinder, as if one raised hand or “Amen” can send us soaring to new experiences of the Kingdom of Jesus (or at least to meet Him at the altar).

Have you seen that same seal as it unceremoniously flops out of the water onto dry land? It scoots as best it can across the hard ground, obviously struggling to accomplish what it needs until it can, in sweet relief, flop back into the water – once again transformed into the graceful creature we love to observe.

Some of us feel the same way as we leave the sanctuary each Sunday around noon (hopefully in time for _______). The ease of movement in His Spirit falls quickly away, and we find ourselves scooting uncomfortably across the pavement, with our journey seeming about as natural as….well, a seal out of water. Forgiveness scrapes our hides. Hurry dries our eyes. Anxiety chafes our once baptism-moist skin cells, and we bark at one another until we can drop off the edge and into the waters once more.

Some of us can’t make it to next Sunday, so we’ll join on Wednesdays. Some of us can’t even make it until then, so we have been thankful to discover our ability to swim through pools of personal times in prayer and devotion.

But what if?

What if becoming a follower of Jesus, and receiving new life by His Holy Spirit, was about discovering God’s Kingdom now flooding all of time and space? What if we were those who could love unhindered by what previously held us back? What if one moment of prayer could supernaturally propel us into New Creation experiences of His presence and peace? What if we could rest in His Holiness, safe and securely attached in our identity as His beloved, rather than attempting to attain/prove/or defend success by our own efforts? What if we joined on Sundays, Wednesdays, and even in our personal moments – not desperately parched – but gratefully aware of His continuously available presence and love?

I’m guessing we’d want to close our eyes and smile a bit. Or open them wider in wonder. (Thankfully, I’m guessing we’d have the little clear eye-flappy thing to protect our eyes so they could stay open.)

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a true story.

We ducked down a bit in the large passenger vehicle, trying to make it seem like it was no big deal. Our hearts were beating so fast, but we’d been told to stay quiet. Everything needed to look as normal as possible. We had no choice but to trust our driver. He had taken side roads for as long as possible, but there was no side road available near a border crossing. Before resuming the large, slow flow of single-file vehicles, he pulled over to call his wife. We had very little knowledge of the local language, but we didn’t need to understand his words to hear his concern. He was smuggling foreigners (us) across a very tightly closed border. He was telling his wife he would check back in with her after we all made it safely through the checkpoint. None of us knew what to expect.

As we came closer to the border crossing, we saw the recently erected army tents. They were detaining any foreigners, even those with proper paperwork. We had heard stories of families being detained and separated into gender-specific last-minute accommodations. Countries didn’t have official responses ready for something like this. As a married father of 4 daughters, that would mean being separated from all of my family, leaving them alone in a country where none of us spoke the language, and one of us with brown skin. A country not always known for warmly welcoming immigrants. He collected our identification cards (in case they were asked for) and told us to keep quiet and to not make eye contact with anyone. “Some of you pretend to sleep.”

It was March 2020, and we were returning to our Missionary work in Hungary from what had been a short trip to celebrate my wife’s birthday in Paris (European travel is VERY cheap when you’re already in Europe!). But while we were gone, new concerns over something called the “Coronavirus” had caused panicked countries globally to close their borders over safety concerns. We were legal, temporary residents of Hungary. Most of what we owned in this world was there, in our apartment, including our family cat, Toby. But legally, at that moment, we were unwelcome foreigners. Those in the country were allowed to stay, but no one else was being admitted unless they were native-born.

We had arranged for a Hungarian man to pick us up from the airport in Vienna, Austria, and drive us the 45 minutes home to the city we were living in. It was only as we loaded our luggage into his vehicle at the airport that he realized the possible dilemma. He remembered seeing army tents being erected when he drove west into Austria, but didn’t think much of it. In that airport loading zone, looking at his American passengers, a family in need, he made a quick decision to help us. I don’t even remember his name, but even now I’m thankful, and I pray God blesses him.

I remember what was probably a 5-minute stop, feeling like hours. Soldiers approached our vehicle. I remembered our time in Congo, caring for our daughter, and eventually being able to bring her home. We’d seen soldiers before. But our daughters were fairly young and untraveled, and seeing the armed soldier after hearing our concerns talked about openly, I can only imagine how they were feeling in that moment. We prayed quietly, holding hands unseen. We looked down at the floor mostly, quietly stealing glances at the men in the front of the vehicle, talking back and forth with soldiers. We couldn’t understand their words, but he gestured back at us once or twice. It sounded like small talk, and our driver kept his cool. Finally, we were given the thumbs up, and as the vehicle ahead of us drove forward, we were allowed to follow. We entered the country, and after a few moments of tense silence, our driver celebrated aloud. He congratulated us, saying he had just officially declared we were all Hungarian citizens. We all felt even more relieved than his voice sounded as he called his wife to tell her all was well. We were on our way “home”.

Immigration is an issue. Immigrants are people.” These words were repeated over and over when I was studying to pursue my Immigration Law Paralegal status back in 2016. As part of my “MDiv”, I’d taken a course on Multi-Cultural Ministry, and the paralegal work was offered as an additional opportunity. As a pastor, I could not represent someone in court, but I could understand the law better and help fill out the required paperwork. Life and work have taken us in new directions, and I haven’t kept up my training. But I’ll never forget the heart of Jesus I discovered volunteering with local immigration lawyers, and learning how the issues were impacting individuals and families. It’s a very broken system, in need of reform. (Example: Current processing time for a U.S. citizen to petition for their parent/child/spouse is over 60 months. 100+ months if you’re a permanent resident, but not a citizen. Can you imagine not living with your loved one that long?) People on both sides of the aisle are doing great work to ensure and promote that work continues…both for secure borders and to offer assistance to those in deep need.

All of it is a needed reminder: No one goes through these processes for fun. Especially given the climate of conversation (or lack of conversation) these days, who would want to sign up for the stigma and separation from loved ones that can come in these processes? Many do so because they are desperate for a new life, or feel forced on this path because, like us, heading back into Hungary, they feel it’s the only option, and worth the risk. The story I shared was nothing like what so many people face, risking everything for the chance, not just of a “better life”, but of a continued life in struggle, compared to a known risk of death on other paths.

Lately, it seems like those on both sides of the political extremes are launching anger at the other. Anger toward and dehumanizing those who desire safety and are working to secure borders to protect their future and their children. Others have anger toward and are dehumanizing those who desire to cross or remain within secure borders to protect their future and their children. Politicians at the top of both sides are moving pawns around, whether angry protestors or angry ICE agents, to make their points and secure future elections, without assessing the human costs involved for those suffering on the front lines.

Jeremiah 22:3 “This is what the Lord says: Do what is just and right. Rescue from the hand of the oppressor the one who has been robbed. Do no wrong or violence to the foreigner, the fatherless or the widow, and do not shed innocent blood in this place.”

I don’t have a solution. But I do agree with those calling for prayer. Calling for dialogue. Calling for greater amounts of listening. Slowing down our responses to increase safety and discernment. Calling for both sides to regard the preciousness and the humanity of those they currently see only as an obstacle to accomplishing their own goal. Lord Jesus, help us in these moments. Protect the vulnerable. Give us wisdom, and help us to move forward guided by Your Spirit, with Your Kingdom as our foundation.

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A Poem for Christmas 2025

There is a peace you will not find
In one more moment, scrolling
There is a comfort more divine
Than powers grasped, controlling

There is a Love that heals all wounds
Of human loves short-falling
There is a voice that draws us nearer
Than other hungers calling

There is a strength in tiny babe
God in His weakness, arrival
Here is a hope our life can mean
Much more than just survival

For those so overwhelmed by noise
One silent stillness beckons
For those in lonesome silence now
Hungering for connection

His is the presence, calling us
If we will pause to listen
Beyond the noises that distract
And ads for that which glistens

His Love invites our lives to join
Redemption now arriving
To follow as His Spirit leads
To Kingdom ways, abiding

Embracing as we’ve been embraced
Forgiving as forgiven
To know this infant we celebrate
Was to the cross, Love-driven

Allow His Love to enter in
Before a hindrance may start
Let us set aside our pace
And listen to His heart…

1 John 4:16-19
“So we have known and believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and those who abide in love abide in God, and God abides in them. Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness on the day of judgment, because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear; for fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not reached perfection in love. We love because he first loved us.”