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A Gathering of Thunder…

(Warning: Spoiler Alerts from the movie “Thunderbolts”. Do not read unless you’re okay with that.)

Confession: I enjoy Marvel movies. I grew up with the X-Men, and superheroes in general were always fun to keep up with. I don’t know them nearly as well as those who are well-versed in the comics. But I’m familiar enough to enjoy keeping up with the new movies. I also believe imagination and the arts are an important part of our prayer and spiritual life, so I’m always encouraging our girls to pay attention to where Kingdom Truths are being revealed or expressed in culture.

With all of this in mind, I thoroughly enjoyed the movie “Thunderbolts*” recently. If you’re a Marvel purist, you may not enjoy this post. But if you’re open to it, I believe the movie illustrates beautifully some important Kingdom truths, especially as we experience them in our present cultural deficits.

  1. Emotional Health is real, and a real need even (and especially) for Christians. In her role as a pastor, my wife is leading a group through the book “Emotionally Healthy Spirituality“. It has been a blessing to share the journey with her and others. Toward the beginning, Yelena shares advice with Bob to “stuff it down deep” to his question of what to do with the “emptiness”. An emotionally healthy person can be aware and respond authentically with self-regulation even to unpleasant emotions. Pretending everything is fine and peace exists, when there are real challenges or biological alerts that something is not okay, denies a major part of who God has created us to be. As we see toward the end of the movie, this creates a “shadow self” which is not our real and authentic self. We become focused more on controlling and manipulating both ourself and others without recognizing the humanity of anyone. In fact, (as illustrated poignantly in the “Dark Sentry” moments) we “dehumanize” others, displacing their authentic self, consuming them for our purposes in ways that leave them as isolated as we were feeling in the first place. As we do this, the darkness we thought we had “dealt with” grows – no longer within us, but demanding space out in the reality we exist in. Such a dehumanizing darkness continues to cause isolation, both within us from our true selves, but also between us and others (especially the most “otherly” of others), and between us and God.
  2. Our Goals are Dis-ordered. We see a collection of “dis-ordered” goals, in Ox Corp’s attempt to create the most powerful “super-soldier”, called “The Sentry”. He would be male, obviously, and have no weaknesses or limitations. So many of these same goals can be found woven through our society, especially as seen in our pursuit and use of technological advances. Andy Crouch does a great job highlighting these pursuits in what he calls “the Magic”. The goal is to maximize productivity (profit/power/etc.) with minimal effort, and disregarding the human/environmental costs. We want to be as close to being “a god” as possible. We want to know everything, transcend every limit, and make anything we need or want accessible instantly (instant gratification). We want to be omnidesirable (I made up this word, but we want to be in a perpetual state of “camera ready” without vulnerable flaws or imperfections.), omniscient (have access to all knowledge in our pockets), and omnipresent (having internet capabilities connecting the globe wirelessly). We want to defend our ability to have and be these things so strongly, anyone who seems to stand in our way is no longer a person but an object – an obstacle to be removed in our pursuits. Jonathan Haidt has a bestselling book about how this cycle of anxious pursuit is unsustainable and dis-integrating. At several points in the movie, we hear a voice of reason questioning these goals being pursued without regard for the persons involved. Mel, who is Valentina’s assistant tries to point out the risks involved in offering limitless expectations to someone who is emotionally wounded, or at best very undeveloped. By offering all these divine-like promises of our culture to every child as young as they’re able to hold a screen/device – perhaps we’re doing the exact same thing?
  3. Healing comes in authentic relationship/community. Many books and podcasts are finally announcing what the research has been long showing us – to quote John Donne, “No man is an island.” I’ve loved the research being done by leaders like Dr. Curt Thompson, and the writing of Dr. Jim Wilder in areas of interpersonal neurobiology. There is so much healing available to us when we purposefully pursue vulnerability in committed community with a small group of others. We’ve “discovered” what God revealed in scripture long ago – we are made in the image of a Triune God who literally IS relationship (and invites us to exist within that relationship), revealed in Jesus Christ. We cannot exist in healthy or redemptive ways in our isolation, or in the false versions of community most of us settle for provided by social media. “Media” means “in the middle”, and so we’re reminded that a “mediated presence” through technology is not an embodied presence. It can be a helpful tool at times, but should never be seen as anything more than a supplement or liminal space to actual in-person relationships wherever possible. When God wanted to invite us back into restored relationship with Him, He was not content to send a message to us, or even appear in the clouds. He came in the flesh, walked among us, and invites us to “become His body” by the power of the Holy Spirit still today. This is what every local church seeks to be, as our specific/temporal expression of the Church across all time and space. This is our hopeful and redemptive path of response to all the “darkness/isolation” caused by turning away from God in the first place (see Genesis 3).

Just as Yelena was encouraged, we are those who “shine the light” in response to darkness (John 1:5). We do not attempt to do this on our own, but together with others. We live in this direction humbly, confessing our faults to each other, and being loved/restored each time – as we grow in the direction of more readily being those with strong attachments to our God who is Love. This will take grace, in every direction. This will take practicing forgiveness and reconciliation as an act of tangible love, even and especially where it doesn’t make sense according to the world. When this happens invitationally, even those who thought they were completely lost to darkness already can be integrated into the healing community sourced in the Holy Spirit sent by Jesus Christ. Not only integrated, but becoming part of His living and ongoing invitation to all others to come and be soaked in the healing realities of Father, Spirit, and Son. That sure sounds like a great commission…(pun intended).

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healing words.

Others have said it already – “Salvation means creation healed.” I pray these words can provide a quiet moment spent listening to the heart of the healer.

“healing words.” (a spoken word poem)

In this left-brained world with anxieties hurled once for every breath
With very little left in the well from which we draw
We find it easy to name, but less permission gained to take a pause
To cease inspecting our flaws, or applying gauze to fresh wounds
To step back and give room,
from being those who consume
To be those who receive
You may not even believe, but for a moment, allow
Unfurrow your brow, and close your eyes, just for now
Open the door to the brain on the right, imagine the light
That illuminates not a fight, but a peace,
As anxieties cease, not that we decrease our thought
But we are no longer caught up in the logic of despair
Finding care that reaches out in our direction
Slowing down for reflection upon such a choice,
we hear a voice
One that has been whispering since we were born…

“I was there when you were formed. Before you were even given name
I assembled your frame within the womb. As a groom pursues his bride,
I’ve opened my arms wide that you might abide here with me.
But you see, this world is not what I had in mind
The free will that blinds humanity, convinced of their own way
Has caused so much delay in the life I have willed
So many dreams, stilled by my gracious approach
Not wanting to encroach or force my own
Not to impose my throne, yet unable to deny
To turn away from me, is to choose to die
For I Am, Love and Life itself, a wealth that runs deeper than gold
No matter what you’ve been sold, you’re set free from all your debts
Here my forgiveness begets New beginning
Whether you’re swimming upstream, or just barely up to surface
Feeling you don’t deserve this, because shame is in season
But there is no reason from me to turn, nothing here to earn
All that is given for free, completely
My child, I desire to bless
I invite you to come and confess, not because I don’t already know
But to show a heart that is open, beyond just hoping
This will be the best choice in a long line of empty reminders
Blinders to the Love I’ve offered all along
Noise that has drowned out my song of delight
Morning, noon, and night,
I’ve always sung over you, that you might hear
Know that you are so dear, I’ve watched you – responding to fear
Unclear about your story. I assure you, you were born for glory.
But not the kind this world entices, by distractions and vices,
The deceiver aims to keep you moving, always disapproving
But never slowing, feeling like you’re owing
A debt you could never afford, its’ payments become your lord
But the cord stretches so thin, it begins to disappear
You forget what keeps you from being right here
Come closer, I Am, Jesus.

You’ve been pulled by strings impossible to see
But hear me – I’ve cut through them all.
You are free, even free to fall.
For anytime you call, I’m there already
Arms steady and strong, reminding you belong
To something much more grand
A glory this world does not understand
But I’ve planned a New beginning
Much more than simply winning
And already being revealed
As all wounds are healed in humanity and creation
As every tongue and every nation are united
All that once divided, burned away
So for today, stay.
Hear my heart for healing.
Join my love in revealing what’s in store
Not just as treatment, but as cure.
From all that brings dis-ease
My Love is that which frees”

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New Years


Just as Cinderella escaping the ball,
we all respond to the call of midnight
As next year comes into sight,
we chill the drinks and prepare to chill together
Sheltering from the weather,
whether our burdens are heavy or light as a feather,
finding shelter, both from outside and the storms in our lives,
The ones that beat us down throughout this year.

We’ll gather near the people we enjoy,
employing tactics that make everything seem light.
“The future is bright!” We will say with smiles,
and miles of streamers burst at 12 o’ clock

Then like rocks we’ll collapse into beds
we’ve made the year before.
Waves of time crashing on the shore,
we fall asleep realizing they call out for something more.
Inspirational memes with quotes that seem as thin
as ice in Florida,
As if someone has wiped the scales from your eyes,
you realize:

The skies are beautiful,
but don’t determine if today will be good or not
The plot is not written in stone, not even etched in concrete
And your feet are still incredibly useful for deciding where to go
But you have to do more than know.
Have to do more than show enthusiasm or desire.
You might have to put yourself out on a wire.
The entire year ahead can be influenced by a single decision
A moment where you choose to ignite the change, it feels strange,
Because our world encourages so much feeling,
to see the ceiling and realize your wings are meant for more.
Meant to soar, and explore the unknown heights, beyond childish kites,
Or exercise the powerful control of someone
who chooses not to fly at the moment.
Because you know how needed you are along the ground.
As you have found,
that wings grow stronger when restrained to serve others.
Like sisters and brothers, recognizing we’re not meant for competition,
This mission is not impossible, when our strength is found in numbers,
Coming together with old and newcomers
To this stage called life,
and right in the middle of what you thought was simply going to be –
Can be directly influenced by something you choose to do,
choose to believe, choose to wait,
choose to say no to fate, choose not to berate, choose to hope,
choose to live, choose to forgive, choose life,
choose to fight for what’s right, choose to welcome,
choose to breathe slow, and know –
there are more seeds to sow.

And as you plow each row, preparing what will come,
you’ve grown less numb
To feeling more alive.
Waking those in comas around you, you point out the seeds in their hand,
and together stand in the face of unknown tomorrows,
and breathe.

Tomorrow may be
joy or pain, sunshine or rain,
but both have ways of serving the seed.
Serving what will grow.
As we flow into the new year,
the words you’ve heard start demanding:

What are you planting?