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Walking Through our Emotional Forest with Jesus (a prayer prompt)

Read slowly, pausing as needed…

In 1 Samuel 16:7, God tells his prophet Samuel, “The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” Later in Acts 15:8, as non-Jewish followers of Jesus begin to receive the Holy Spirit, Peter proclaims “God, who knows the heart, shows he accepted them by giving the Holy Spirit to them, just as He did to us.” We believe God doesn’t just “look into” our hearts. He knows our hearts already. As those made in His image, we are aware of hearts and emotions, though we cannot know the hearts of others as He can. In moments like this one, we slow down to become aware of our own hearts in His presence, as it’s the only human heart He enables us to know fully. Knowing our own heart prepares us to share our hearts in reciprocal relationships as those made in His Triune image.

With this in mind, I want to invite you to close your eyes for a moment (or at least, stop looking around as you read these words). Take a deep, slow breath and allow the room around you to fade away. Acknowledge intrusive thoughts as they come, and set them aside for later. With your eyes closed, imagine yourself surrounded by a small forest of full, green, leafy trees. Pay attention to the stillness, the quiet, and how refreshing it is just to breathe deep in this space. You are surrounded by life.

As you imagine the trees surrounding you, you begin to notice there are 6 trees, almost in a circle surrounding you. Many smaller trees and shrubs fill in, but you begin to notice these trees seem to hold a special invitation by God for you to approach and consider. These are the 6 primary emotions we often feel, and each is capable of helping us reflect the image of God in a unique way. In these moments we will listen to the heart of God, who knows our hearts, and allow Him to guide our awareness.

The first tree you notice near you, is the tree of Fear. Where have you felt afraid in the past week? What has made you experience anxiety, or feel rejected by others? Ask God to make you aware of how these feelings have been present. (Pause as God guides, before continuing.) “Lord, we confess that we are sometimes afraid. We do not live in perfect trust with you, and the feeling of fear helps us to become aware of where we can turn to You in new ways. Calm our fears, Jesus. We are thankful for your presence even when we are afraid.” (Take a deep, slow breath before continuing.)

The next tree you notice near you, is the tree of Happiness. Where have you felt happy in the past week? What has made you experience being proud, joyful, or optimistic? Ask God to make you aware of how these feelings have been present. (Pause as God guides, before continuing.) “Lord, we are thankful for those moments our happiness comes from those things which delight you. We confess sometimes we seek happiness in ways that are not of you. Holy Spirit, make us more aware of our happiness, and may we experience the sources of Your Joy.” (Take a deep, slow breath before continuing.)

The next tree nearby is the tree of Anger. Where have you felt angry in the past week? What has made you experience feeling hurt, or threatened by others? Ask God to make you aware of how these feelings have been present. (Pause as God guides, before continuing.) “Lord, we confess that we sometimes feel angry. Your Word offers guidance, ‘In your anger, do not sin.’ We ask that you would guide us to understand how our anger reveals opportunities for growth and healing sourced in Your Holy Spirit this week. Set us free from any chains of anger still holding us, and bring your healing even now, Jesus.” (Take a deep, slow breath before continuing.)

As you look around the trees, you notice the next one is labeled Disgust. Where have you felt disgust this past week? What has made you experience disappointment, disapproval, or the desire to avoid others? Ask God to make you aware of how these feelings have been present. (Pause as God guides, before continuing.) “Lord Jesus, you experienced the disgust of injustice. You experienced the disappointments of human misunderstandings or stubbornness. Fill us with your patient compassion even now, for a world and a humanity wounded by sin. We are thankful for how our disgust can make us aware of where You invite us to grow.” (Take a deep, slow breath before continuing.)

Now take a deep breath. We only have two more trees. Notice God is smiling as you spend time walking with Him, aware of these trees together.

The next tree God draws your attention to, is a tree marked Sadness. Where have you felt sad this past week? What has made you experience loneliness, despair, or even guilt? Ask God to make you aware of how these feelings have been present. (Pause as God guides, before continuing.) “Father, we know your heart is tender, as we confess the tenderness of our own hearts before You. We know you wept in Your sadness, and you invite us to come near to you even now, entering Your comforting embrace. Bring healing where our hearts hurt. Help us to always be honest with our sadness, even as You show us the hope of your eternal healing, where sorrowful tears will be no more.” (Take a deep, slow breath before continuing.)

Finally, we see the 6th tree of our short hike, one labeled Surprise. Where have you felt surprised this past week? What has made you experience confusion, amazement, or being startled? Ask God to make you aware of how these feelings have been present. (Pause as God guides, before continuing.) “Lord Jesus, we are thankful for the process of learning to trust You through the unknowns. Just as Your disciples, we follow You while only seeing what is necessary to take each new step forward. Make us humbly aware of how Your surprise reveals the whimsical joy of our loving creator this week. As we walk side by side with you, startle us with revelations of Your goodness and Love.” (Take a deep, slow breath before continuing.)

“And now, Father – Son – and Holy Spirit, as we open our eyes and the trees begin to fade – help us to continue seeing with Your heart-centered vision. Reveal to us how each new feeling invites us to know ourselves as You know us, and Love us. In the name of Jesus we pray. Amen.”

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confession: I want to prove God.

For as much as I wasn’t a giant fan of “God’s Not Dead” for reasons we can talk about in person…I will confess I have something in common with the young college student.  I have a desire to prove God.   It’s not that I want to prove His existence, or even prove to someone that Jesus was divine.  It’s not an intellectual debate I want to win.  I want to prove to my children, the goodness and faithfulness of God, in the midst of a world where such testimony may be hard to hear behind other noises.

It struck me in a particular way recently, as I was praying for our adoption.  You may have something else weighing on your heart.  Something your family is praying fervently for.  Something you and your children name regularly every night in family prayer time, and the main thing your kids might mention if they’re praying before bed at a friends house.  Whatever that thing is, beyond praying for that “thing” itself….as a parent we also find ourselves praying it for the sake of our children.   That they will experience God’s hearing of the prayer, and be able to celebrate together as a family when He responds.

So what happens, when that “main family prayer”, becomes the one unanswered?  The one a family is left to struggle with.  What if our children grow up praying about it, almost as a reflex, but slowly and accidentally learn never to actually receive a response from God on the issue?http___makeagif.com__media_5-05-2014_dpmt43

In my anxiety and frustration, God calms me down.  Hand on my shoulder, tears welling up in his own eyes, He speaks with love.  “You and your family are not the beginning, or the center of what I’m up to, Chadwick.”  In a moment of humility, He reminds me of where I sat just a few weeks ago, at a Seder dinner with my children. From my own lips, my children heard God’s story as one we are now the continuation of.  That His people lived for hundreds of years in slavery, and have faced suffering and death for millenia.  That the story of God’s people is one of embracing what it means to suffer in a world that is not yet made right.  What it means to not pretend everything is easy or can make sense.  Imagine what it would’ve been like for an Israelite parent to teach their children the goodness of God, in the midst of generations of slavery.  God calls us to live uncomfortably in a world that idolizes comfort and ease.  We are a people who have been crying out to God for thousands of years, and God has been/continues to respond to that cry.  He invites us to actively participate in that response as well.  Not by denying or avoiding the brokenness of the world – but by how we suffer as those who know God is with us.

His was a reminder – one of the greatest things we do as a parent is to give our children, and younger generations a context for their struggles/doubts.  A safe place to express suffering…(any youth pastor who’s heard a teenager lament at a broken relationship can understand this)…and a larger view/context that helps to bring genuine perspective and comfort knowing God is with us even in these moments.  Not promising to make everything better for every individual who comes to Him like a genie inside a magic lamp.  Yet….not like a removed deity who has nothing to do with the world He set in motion, either.

God is at work.  In faithful and world-changing-ly large ways.  But also in small, thankful whispers of reminder.  We know that His heart is seen being revealed in “Immanuel, which means ‘God with us.'”

All of that to say, be encouraged.  Even when it seems our prayers aren’t being responded to.  Not because “God’s working it all out to be even better than you would’ve prayed.”  But because, God is with us.  Always.  Has been, and will be.  That’s the story we invite our children to live within.   That’s the story that invites them to prove God…