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the ants go marching one by one…..(no hurrah)

When we bought our house back in November of 2005, they found traces of termites. Nothing alive, apparently, but some trails. So they treated it for termites, and we have a $60 a year plan to keep them away.

Since then, we’ve seen a few bugs here and there. We’ve seen ants. But didn’t think much of them. Figured, as long as most food is cleaned up, no problems right? Carpenter ants don’t EAT wood, after all…they just tunnel through it.

But them suckers is determined lil’ things.

Seriously, in a home with 2 daughters, and wood floors…well, it’s a given that crumbs are gonna end up in some of your nooks and crannies. But yesterday was a sign that something more than a can of Wal-mart ant killer was needed. A piece of candy lay underneath a chair on the side of the room furthest from the front door. I’d say about 4 or 5 hours passed.

When we finally noticed it…it was a pile of moving black dots….with a trail of active ants leading all the way to the front door. They’d found a hole behind the door frame through which to carry their spoils. Who knows…might even be a whole nest in there. This picture is about what the entryway to our front door looks like:
Gonna have to get a new board to walk on…or something. But hopefully these professional bug killers know what they’re doing. (don’t worry posting your grandma’s advice on how to kill ants in your house…..I have the interweb too…but thanks. 🙂 )

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Преступление и наказание

I’m about 90 pages away from finishing “Crime and Punishment” for the first time. I gotta say, I’ve definitely enjoyed it more than I thought I would. Both as thought-provoking, and as a story to engage. It’s not like an action-paced, can’t put it down type thriller. I definitely can’t read it after 10pm. And it’s hard to read a few pages at a time. The best times I had with the book are when I devoted an hour or two at a time to enter its’ pages.

You can find stuff all over the internet analyzing the contents of the book. The symbolism (or possible symbolism) runs deep, throughout every section of the book, whether intended or not. Themes of guilt, spirituality, mercy, grace, freedom, forgiveness, piety, “carrying a cross”, reason, etc. All you gotta do is check the stuff on Wikipedia to know it’s a pretty full book.

Raskolnikov has committed murder. Most of the book is told through his mind/life, describing the guilt in such ways that you almost sweat with/for the man. But one conversation about a paper he wrote before any of this happened stood out for me. About how a man might know if he’s destined for something great. Destined to bring/say something “new” into the world. He continually uses Napoleon as an illustration of such a man, saying whatever was necessary for Napoleon to become what he did, would’ve been justifiable.

If something “new” is to be brought, then what is old must die/pass on/be transformed. And whatever might stand in the way of that is to be dealt with as mere stepping stones, necessarily crossed towards greatness.

Perhaps this is why murder has taken place? 🙂 Most likely not, as “mere stepping stones” shouldn’t have the power to cause this much guilt in someone destined for greatness.

And then you discover Dostoevsky’s intentions for this to be a type of illustration to the public.

Committing evil is not justified –
even when it’s done for the cause of greater good.

Probably still a pretty appropriate message for an age where politicians and business moguls alike are promising some sort of “secret knowledge” or “path” to a more Utopian society, if we are willing to sacrifice a certain type of life. (they usually don’t talk about what is sacrificed)

There are “new” things yet to come,
but they involve a different approach to death. (Romans 8:13).
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"one more night" syndrome…

Recently, we switched Addie from a crib to a “big girl bed” (a toddler bed). It’s lower to the ground, and she can get in and out as she pleases. So far she has been pretty good about staying in bed until mommy and daddy ask her to get out. But at times she’s even gone further than that…

She seems to be comforted by the bars, snuggling up against them like she used to in her crib days.In the book of Exodus, we see Moses offer Pharaoh a chance to get rid of the plague of frogs. Pharaoh responds, “come back tomorrow and do it”. Which begs an obvious question: If the plague was so terrible (and it seems to have been), why spend an extra night sleeping with the frogs?

We’ve been offered freedom. Freedom to exist, live, relate, receive, and build towards the Kingdom of God. To make choices and decisions based not on what the world would think, our friends or family or social structures at school or work. Not to make choices selfishly based on what “we want, or think” (which can change easily based on emotions/situations) . But actually based on how the Kingdom of God (the Reign and Rule of God) is revealed to exist, both now and coming.

We are given this freedom. The freedom to know we’ve been created for a purpose. The freedom to not have to “conquer” the situations of our life in order to prove the “power” of that freedom. But at the same time, the freedom to stand in the name of God in the midst of injustice, and work towards justice.

But at the same time, we press our faces comfortably against the railings we know so well. The railings of materialism. Of unforgiveness. The railings of jealousy, of pride, of anger. We spend another night captive, maybe out of fear, and maybe out of laziness, or maybe because last time we slept without the railing we fell out of bed and got bruised.

But it still remains. We have been made free. Life to it’s fullest, the nature of God, and the Kingdom He is revealing…all drawing us nearer…