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do you mind?

What did you choose to wear today, or eat for lunch? Who did/will you choose to marry, or what did/will you choose as an occupation? Did you actually choose these things, or were you simply following a pattern pre-determined by the multifaceted details about the body/brain/family/time you were born and live within? You may or may not know – some neurologists have tried to make a case against “Free Will”. As a firm believer in the healing importance of confessing our agency, I want to offer a few thoughts on the conversation.

In Deuteronomy 30:19-20, we read “I call heaven and earth to witness against you today that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Choose life so that you and your descendants may live, loving the Lord your God, obeying him, and holding fast to him, for that means life to you and length of days, so that you may live in the land that the Lord swore to give to your ancestors, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob.” We are given a choice. Similarly, in Galatians 5:16-17, “Live by the Spirit, I say, and do not gratify the desires of the flesh. For what the flesh desires is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit desires is opposed to the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to prevent you from doing what you want.” Even living as a follower of Jesus is not something we assume happens “automatically” when we believe, taking away our sense of agency. Paul writes imperatively, “live by the Spirit”, because there is the option to do otherwise.

So where does the questioning of “Free Will” come from? As highlighted well in the enjoyable book “The Unthinkable Truth“, the newest fMRI brainscan technology has pinpointed areas of our thought processes in ways we’ve never before had access to. Based on recent research, scientists can identify by a brain imaging what decision a person will make up to 10 seconds before a person is aware of their own decision being made. Which is interpreted as “The choice is made before the person consciously makes the choice.” As Bouskila writes in his fictional story around genuine research, “..the bottom line of all these studies is that between the two options – you control your brain or your brain controls you – the latter is correct.” Many believe these newest studies affirm what Benjamin Libet implied in his 1980’s experiments on the conscious free will. Our brains make decisions for us, before we are even aware of a choice being made.

Thankfully, even among those who are interpreting these things to mean we have less agency than once imagined, there is an openness to unpredictability. Recently, neuroscientist Robert Sapolsky has written, “Will we ever get to the point where our behavior is entirely predictable, given the deterministic gears grinding underneath? Never—that’s one of the points of chaoticism. But the rate at which we are accruing new insights into those gears is boggling—nearly every fact in this book was discovered in the last fifty years, probably half in the last five.

In the midst of all these things, our world is also watching the rise of artificial intelligence, and many are questioning the difference between a computer, and the human mind. Can consciousness be fabricated? If not fabricated, can it at least be transferred? Philosopher Christof Koch writes, “Computational functionalism is a widespread article of faith in Silicon Valley and the tech industry. From this point of view, the whole-brain simulation of your brain will possess your mind, or at least a fair approximation of it, and will be conscious. The integrated information theory of consciousness takes a starkly different approach. It argues that consciousness is not a type of computation but is fully and completely specified by the unfolded causal powers of the system upon itself, whether a brain or a computer.

Echoing Koch, neuroscientist Peter Ulric Tse reminds us our brains are not simply machines meant to do supercomputing. They are unique and non-reproducible, no matter how improved our “artificial intelligence” (which are mostly just Generative LLMs anyways) may become. As helpful as technology might be (ethics of regenerating using unique creative content aside), we have capacity as human beings that no machine will ever be capable of. This capacity is retained even with current debates of our “free will”. Tse writes, “..my journey into issues concerning the maximization of human liberty began with my efforts to escape the faulty metaphor of the brain as a computer, and place meaning rather than information at the center of what brains, minds, and consciousness are for.” Tse sees current research into calculating when a particular decision was made, and maintains that no matter when or how a decision is made, a foundation of our humanity is our creative freedom and imagination. He writes, “We can strive to become a self that we imagine, thereby choosing to become a new kind of chooser operating in a new kind of world of our own choosing.

All of this echoes recent writing by Jim Wilder in his book “Renovated”, where he takes some familiar content by Dallas Willard and makes new contributions toward the healing transformation God desires through attachment. Many people find it difficult to “become a Christian” by simply adopting new beliefs or assenting to a particular new Truth. I believe this is why God has invited us to experience healing (often called “salvation”, in the eternal sense) in an intentional community (Church) of loving relationships, and in loving relationship with our Triune God. Wilder writes, “The ability to choose (will) is a very flimsy cortical function located on the outside of our brain…attachments (relational identity), at a brain level (beginning in the brain stem) create an identity that operates faster than conscious thought.” To put it simply, as others have written, “We are transformed more by what we love, than what we think.”

All of this is to say, as new research might emerge about when our brains decide something, or what computers might be capable of – remember that you are uniquely able to exist as you today. You are capable not only of sensing, but of discovering the meaning behind what you sense, and the mutual accountability of discovering that meaning with others. You are capable not only of deciding based on what you see, but based on the future realities you’re able to imagine prayerfully together with the Holy Spirit. You’re invited to confess the choices you had agency in making (James 5:16), repent (turning away & having a changed mind), being set free from past narratives by the authority of Jesus, so that together in a community of beloved others, we can collectively experience healing restoration and transformation toward a New Creation God has already begun in the resurrected Jesus Christ.

This is literally the super-natural becoming our new natural. I am thankful for the healing that has come already, and looking forward to how His healing continues to arrive personally, communally, and universally.

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Advent: (a spoken word poem)

You might have heard it before. I have. I wrote it. I recorded myself speaking it. Yet listening to it once again, in this season, hits me anew. So it seems worth sharing. May we slow down, and attend to His heart in the midst of all these things…

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an overview & reminder…

I want to give an overview of what I believe as a Christian. Like flying high over a land I love for a moment, instead of walking through the park. Whether this is your first time hearing, or you’ve known for years, it’s good to hear these reminders. (I’d usually prefer a walk through the park.)

We believe God created all things, and humanity was created to exist fully in a trusting relationship with God, abiding in all God provides as we walk with Him.  Just as when a child forms a healthy attachment to their parents, we were created to trust in God to meet our needs and offer us our place of belonging.  Our identity, even in how we relate vulnerably to one another, was fully resting in Him.

We became deceived, though, choosing not to trust in God as we’d heard whispers that maybe He was withholding something from us.  We ate from the only fruit He had commanded us to avoid, which brought the doubt and distrust of our hearts out to tangibly impact the order and balance of His good physical creation.   Not trusting Him fully, we lost a healthy sense of attachment and began to wander in our identities, inviting insecurity and a death of what God intended wherever we chose something against His ways. Often we use the word “Holy” to describe His ways, which is a very churchy way of saying “otherly” or “set apart”.  His ways were uniquely different from ours, because they were rooted in fully trusting His Lordship and provision.  In the book of Genesis, we see this as Adam and Eve realizing they were naked, and being ashamed.  Our relationship with God, and with one another experienced a disconnection from the source of our life, and we’ve been struggling as humanity ever since.  We believe God intended the fullness of life, and so choosing the death of what He intended often actually means “death” itself.  

But God loves us too much to let us remain separated from Him, separated from the life and flourishing of creation He’d created us to enjoy.  Even though His ways were “otherly” and “set apart” or “Holy”, these were the ways we were originally created for.  Right away, he offered “coverings” to Adam and Eve in the book of Genesis, which foreshadowed the way His New Creation Life would provide an everlasting covering over all that separated us from Him and from one another.  Viewing the Old Testament covenant relationship between God & Israel as “parent/children”, humanity began to understand what it all meant. All the Old Testament points to the coming fulfillment of His redemption for all people/nations, which we see finally arriving in Jesus.  Scripture calls Jesus “Immanuel”, which means “God with us.”  Just like an adopted child building a new healthy attachment with their parents by spending time with them, God was redeeming us from living without a secure divine attachment.  By entering into our lives tangibly, He was offering all of us a healing path of reconciled relationship that would undo all the separation caused by our past.

We believe that Jesus came and lived among us to reveal the Father’s Love, and to show us what it looked like when humanity was fully in relationship with the Triune God. Even though He was without sin (which is living in a way that denies our relationship with God), Jesus offered Himself as a sacrifice – being put to death on the cross for being a threat against the Roman Empire (and ultimately against evil forces of empire in all realms).  But His life was not only from this world, He was alive by the Holy Spirit, and so He was resurrected – the first “being” from a future New Creation where/when we believe God will bring complete healing and shalom to all things.  Jesus’ death and resurrection broke the chains of death caused by sin, and invite us right now into an ongoing relationship that transforms everything.  Jesus is a physically resurrected being, but when He went to be where the Father exists fully, He sent us the Holy Spirit to continue the work He had begun.  The Holy Spirit brings the same life seen in Christ, and forms us together globally as a family who enters into New Creation Life together.  Becoming fully attached in His Love, we are literally “born again” into a new identity that is discovered as we live out His redemptive purposes together.  We are fully restored in relationship with God and one another, set free from the unhealthy patterns that came when others or we chose our own way instead of His.  By the power of His Spirit which dwells in us, we literally join His Kingdom arriving/being revealed on earth as it is in heaven.  As this happens, healing salvation arrives.  We are “being saved/healed”, and we “will be saved” as it all comes together fully one day.  

In the book of Revelation, we see mostly the current reality (not future predictions) revealed.  (Apocalypse literally means “a revealing”.)  Jesus (the resurrected crucified lamb) is on the throne already, worthy to unveil the will/purposes of God. Death/sin have been defeated and the forces of dis-ordered (evil, as God created all “order”) empire & death are in the midst of being cast out forever, which is a painful process at times.  Even more painful at others, because there will be those who do not desire His ways of Life. His Love allows us this freedom. Some have built their entire identities as those opposed to the ways of God, so when presented with the full realities of His Lordship, they are “undone”, which can be intense suffering. Yet God’s children are faithful and preserved/encouraged through it all, in order to join His Spirit in bringing healing to the nations until all has been brought to completion.  Toward the end of Revelation, we see a New Heaven and New Earth, which have been united like never before, and the place/point of their uniting has already begun wherever the Lordship of Jesus is revealed.  As we enter further into eternity, we see our physical realm made even more “real/substantial” by the full unveiling of His spiritual realities.  

As Christians, we do not wait to celebrate/live within such realities.  By the Holy Spirit, we are made New Creations even now – living testimonies to the full reality that is to come.  

Amen.  (See Bible for more details.)